My life has been toxic,
my mind is corroded and corruped by my heart.
I fooled myself for months into thinking that things were how I wanted them to be,
even though I was the problem.
You moved on but I was too far gone.
It took me 6 months to remember that you had told me you were seeing someone,
I blocked it out holding onto hope.
I brainwashed myself into holding on,
into thinking everything was alright,
that I was alright,
that I wasn't a failure.

I am intent to destroy everything that was raw and real and good in my life.
You became everything, and I'm left with nothing.